I’m so insecure, and sometimes I feel like breaking down so much, and sometimes wish I never exsisted.. I’ve got so many spots all over my face *acne* and their EVERYWHERE, .. And it’s so annoying .. I’ve got a slightly bent nose that shows so much in photos, which makes me have to say no to photos with mates, and I jus see all the pics their in having fun.. I’m in a low set at school.. And I’ve failed my maths exam this year .. My brothers and sisters are in such messes.. 3 of them have had kids and are single parents struggling, 1 has had their child taken.. Their always here at my moms house making trouble or bringing their toddlers who break everything.. They have no respect and blast pop music full blast.. They eat everything and it’s so embarasing for the family.. Everyone else knows my family problems and gossips.. Even my mates at school.. They tell me they always see my sister shouting over the phone in the street.. I like a girl who says she wants us just to be friends as she doesn’t like me in that way, though she does show signs she does like me a BIT.. , I dated her best friend for a while and I ended it as I just didn’t love her like I love her friend… Now she’ll never want me.. And my teeth are so yellow and big.. I’ve got 4 fillings and I’m only 18.. I’ve got a silver crown tooth already.. .. And I can’t smile in pictures or laugh at my mates’ jokes.. My mum and dad have just broken up, and its so stressful.. I got attacked by someone from my college from behind infront of my whole college, and mates and their always talking about it even though it was 2 yrs ago.. And I’m always labbeled ” special needs ” for being in a low set at my college .. *sixth form* I’m always broke, and I always say the wrong things! .. Like I always get so defensive and be rude about my mates if they attempt to embarass me even if they done it by accident.. I’m ALWAYS the odd 1 out, and I enjoy soccer but I’m SO rubbish! Even though I got a coach
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I used to be into trance. I still like it but now i feel like its become too mainstream and theres no depth to it. and it always sounds the same. I also listen to a lot of new age etc and i still love it. Now i feel like im slowly beginning to like a lot of weird things i never thought i would like. such as meta and folk etc l. i never listened to that before and liked it but now i actually am. Is it because im aging or what?
Hi. I am a senior in high school. I excel academically, have friends who I care for immensely, and have family members who are compassionate and caring. I am enrolled in a respected university that I plan to attend in the fall. I adore dogs, and find music beautiful. Despite all of this, however, my self-esteem is lacking to the extent where I absolutely hate myself. I find myself wanting to punish myself for apparent inadequacies, and admittedly, think about hurting myself sometimes. I’m scared, for I oftentimes think that people’s lives would improve if I were not alive. I feel as if many people dislike me and would be glad to know of my absence. Why is this the case with me, and how can I rid myself of this pain? I feel even worse in that I don’t have a reason to feel this way, and this makes me feel so guilty and I fear I am self-absorbed, even though I try to only focus on others. Please help.