I have been on disability for most my life having a neurological disease that kills brain cells until death. Called Huntington’s Disease, and I have bad attention deficit hyperactivity problems. My girlfriend works full time, and I stay home every day, I can still drive, because I am alert enough to focus on traffic, and signs still. Can do minor, small projects, but never anything on a scale of making a living doing anything. I’m going nuts at home, my father always raised me to work along side him every day in his hometown garage as he did auto repairs, and buy and sold cars. But now I am on my own, and he can’t understand why I don’t want to do anything, and I don’t understand why I am felling such anxiety, and fatigue from just sitting home daily either playing video games on my computer, or designing a video game using a program made easy called, ” RPG maker XP
I am so bored to death, and I walk around the house pacing the floor looking for something to do, and feel like screaming or ripping my hair out. I wan’t to go for a ride any chance I get to get out of the house here, and get a coffee up the road, or talk to the landlord about maybe doing some small projects just to keep busy, or something,..but all this just isn’t cutting it for me. I either have bursts of energy that doesn’t last long, or no energy and feel tired and dead.